In My Life ...

Thanksgiving’s last Red Moscato is dancing on my tongue! I sip it thoughtfully from a blue and white patterned tea cup, part of the wedding set my mother received, and the sweetness draws a happy sigh. The porcelain hugs and embraces the vibrant berry taste, and I become the invisible fizz—sparkling my way through each sip, cradling memories and Resting in Gratitude.

This is a post-in-progress. :-)

 So, Home Depot is facing the largest boycott in its history. Other big companies, too.

It is organized by organizations I have never heard of/just heard the name:
Black Voters Matter
Indivisible 
Until Freedom

 Alright, I am going to make Sir Gawain(boyfriend) a crockpot Shepherd's Pie. I will use an 80/20 ground beef (and ground lamb next time). I guess I will use beef broth, though I like building veggie broths from the produce drawer and/or my spice cabinet. 

Also needed:
Tomato paste, Worcestershire, yellow onions, frozen peas, baby carrots that I am going to cut up, frozen corn, fresh green beans
 
I have:
minced jarred garlic, Himalayan pink salt, black pepper grinder

Mashed potatoes:
Red potatoes, cream cheese, sour cream, onion salt or powder, Himalayan pink salt, black pepper grinder, salted butter, whole milk, parsley flakes

Last year, I saved a question someone had posted ... "How do I break the Trauma Bond? He is all I know." This resonated with me as I tend to keep all vows I make (and this has been detrimental). So, I need to research when a modern day Christian can feel no moral pangs about walking away from a commitment, romantic or otherwise ... I know there are times.

A trauma bond often has cycles ... abuse and "intermittent affection." This speaks to me to investigate further as I think that conditions like Disassociation can be manipulated by Traumatizers and I want to figure out how to break those cycles (including how to take a stand when you still have to associate with someone but have removed yourself from their daily presence .... and they STILL try to mess you/your life up, of course).

The harm can be:
Physical
Emotional
e Psychological
---The Cleveland Clinic has an article about what Trauma Bonding really is and how to recognize the signs.

So, such people use kindness and love. Do they really love? I think they manipulate your HOPE and the tendency to invest(vow and commitment). For me, in a couple of relationships, the man emphasized how much he had supposedly been cheated upon and hurt ... this, of course, made me put so much effort into my (natural)utter faithfulness and expression of devotion.

---verywellhealth identifies the 7 stages of a Trauma Bond and how to get help.

__________________________________________ This healing post is a work-in-progress.